Weakness is a choice


Hey Friends! 
I want to share a bit of a DURING, AFTER and NOW WHAT God is teaching me through this 80 Day Obsession journey and beyond. 

DURING: Excerpt from a Facebook post on Day 78 of 80


 . . . I know that might be harsh but its true.You CAN CHOOSE to be STRONG. Your definition of strong doesn't have to be my definition. Its whats strong for you. Giving up, quitting that's a choice. Don't make it! Show yourself how strong you are." - Autumn Calabres in Day 78 Total Body Core workout this morning.
I don't know about Autumn but I am discovering I'm strong enough to do this crazy hard program ONLY because I have come to the END OF MYSELF and instead of giving into the excuses & believing the lies like I would have in the past I tapped into the strength of my Lord an Savior Jesus and HIS STRENGTH is made PERFECT in my weakness. But ONLY WHEN I give it ALL TO HIM.
If I'm honest I was doing the first 60 something days in "my own strength" but then for one reason or another(mainly believing lies from the devil) I hit a few temptation, believed the lies and gave in. . . It was the few days after those times that I came to the ah-ha moment as I wrestling through this in prayer and frustration. It was like the Lord spoke to me and challenged me with the thought. . . Are you doing this in MY STRENGTH or yours? I thought I was trying to lean on Jesus but realized rather quickly I was still trying to pull myself up by my own bootstraps. : / which clearly was not working so well anymore.
In that moment the still small voice of the Holy Spirit said to me, "Sweetheart your sword is dull." What do we fight spiritual battles with? Armor of God. I had all my armor on I even had my sword of the spirit(the Word of God) but in the moments of the fight I wasn't using it! - It was still stuck in my sheath at my side. I needed to REMEMBER to pull that thing out and USE IT!
You may disagree with me but I believe with all my heart and mind THIS IS A SPIRITUAL BATTLE. And we must fight spiritual battles with the right tools!
So I'm claiming 1 Corinthians 6:12 & 19-20 to fight this battle.
If you are a child of the King - If Jesus is your Savior you have EVERYTHING you need to be victorious and live life to the FULL. All you have to do is TRUST & BELIEVE - REMEMBER and CHOOSE to be strong. Not in your own strength but the strength of the Lord! - That's how I've made it to day 78 of 80 and am looking forward to continuing on with this as my lifestyle.
If you are a child of the King - If Jesus is your Savior you have EVERYTHING you need to be victorious and live life to the FULL. All you have to do is TRUST & BELIEVE - REMEMBER and CHOOSE to be strong. Not in your own strength but the strength of the Lord!

AFTER: 80 Day Obsession:




The most impactful thing I learned through these past 80+ days was that I stand not in my own power(I started that way but come about day 60 something my strength was gone. I took my eyes off Jesus and my true purpose and let doubt and discouragement creep in. But when I turned back to the feet of Jesus. Everything changed.) but in the mighty power of God.

Now I fight lies with truth. My sword is sharpened and God gets the glory for this accomplishment. Because in my strength I made it to day 67 but in His strength I can choose life EVERYDAY from this day forward.

“Now choose life, so that you and your children may live and that you may love the Lord your God, listen to His voice, and hold fast to Him. For the Lord is your life.” Due 30:19-20

“Each time we choose God instead of food, our stronghold loses a bit of its power over us. Victory over our enemy takes time, as we repeatedly choose God over anything else that promises to satisfy.”

NOW WHAT: Gods not finished with me yet!
I decided after much prayer(seriously its no small commitment to go for another round) and debate/conversation back and forth with Amy and Danielle to go for another round. It was in another one of those still small moment the words of this song came to my mind and I just knew it was God Spirit speaking to me,

There is hope for me yet
Because God won't forget
All the plans He's made for me
I'll have to wait and see
He's not finished with me yet
He's not finished with me yet

. . .

Still wondering why I'm here
Still wrestling with my fear
But oh, He's up to something
And the farther on I go
I've seen enough to know that I'm not here for nothing
He's up to something

For my good and His glory, Katie 
(p.s. if any of you are blogging experts and can help me figure out why my posts are all weird fonts and partial white backgrounds that would be awesome! ;0/)   

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